Week 46: ‘Pause’ 
When I first saw this weeks photographic word prompt ‘pause’ I immediately thought of time. This photo was taken at Sydney airport, this time at the departure lounge. The photo isn’t that great and I’m sure my mobile phone could have taken better. The one I tried to capture kept getting light reflections off it and was too blurry. This one was the only one that looked just okay. Maybe my mood had a lot to do with the taking of crappy photos, for I was sad to be saying goodbye to family. You see if I could pause time the lovely holiday shared with my UK relatives wouldn’t be so short as it was only just two weeks ago I shared the photo at their arrival. We’d pause the best bits of their holiday to take one more photo in order to capture everything that happened and the time to say goodbye would come much later. 

Oh how many times would I have loved to ‘pause’ time. There are way too many moments in life worth pausing. If I did pause life for all those precious moments time we spend with each other on earth would be longer. I’d pause the moments of my children’s birth. I’d pause that wonderful moment when I met them for the very first time. I’d pause time at all those developmental milestones – first solids, first smile, first tooth, first words, first steps, first time riding a bike without training wheels, first day of school…I’d want to pause them growing up just so we have longer time with Jacob before having to say goodbye. Twenty years was not enough.

I’d pause the moment that I first met my children’s father, our first kiss on the hill of Bong Bong Picnic races, our wedding, our relationship that created our beautiful children. I’m sure there will be many more moments yet to come that I’ll seek out the pause button of time – when my children get engaged, buy a house, get married, have children and I become a grandparent. It wouldn’t be fair if we just paused time on just the most happiest days. We may learn the hard lessons in life differently if we had more time and could pause it. Even though I know the outcome of what happened on October 7th 2015, if I could pause time I would get more opportunities to say all those extra things I could have said but didn’t. I’ll always wish I had of said this and said that to him before he took his last breath. But I’m sure he knew what was in my heart if the words never passed my mouth. 

Wouldn’t it be nice if could use these buttons in life – PLAY the moments, PAUSE the memories, STOP the pain and REWIND the happiness.