Week 51: ‘me’ 

I’m Debbie, a 53 year old married mum of four young adults – 3 beautiful beings on earth and 1 equally beautiful Heavenly son. As a little girl I dreamed of becoming a nurse and a mum. I believed I could and I did. A newly graduated nurse married her soulmate in 1987 and with this union came 4 children within the next 7 years. Life was good….fast forward to Oct 2015, to where we lost our 20 year old son, brother, grandson, nephew, cousin and friend Jacob. In his brave short battle with Ewing’s Sarcoma he taught us to be thankful for every day you’ve been blessed with. I saw his first and last breath in life (although it’s not meant to be that way) and I’m privileged to have been his mum. We are all still trying to adjust to living our lives without him and in ways to make him proud. We spent the last month of his life ‘inhaling’ and breathing him in, wrapping him up in love and making more memories to cherish. ‘Stay golden pony boy’ – a line from the movie The secret life of Walter Mitty. 

I am…a bereaved mum, a wife, a friend, a daughter, a sister, a niece, an Aunty. I am sad, happy, broken, blessed, shattered, thankful, gutted, mindful and confused all blending into one on any particular day. I am no longer who I was before. But I am learning to smile again – see miracles in life everyday with Jacob’s love and guidance from afar. 

I am a better person because of him.