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a name I call myself


Sharing an entry that I did for week 2 of the 52moments – recapture self 

Week 2 – ‘Me’ This is a photo of ‘me.’ It is taken in the family room of our house. It is a room I gravitate towards to be ‘me’ in. This room has seen many versions of ‘me.’ A mum & wife at 30years of age moving into her new house with 3 young children aged between 1-6years. True to the old wives tale – ‘new house, new baby’ we welcomed Jacob into the new house. The energy in the room is sometimes palpable. So many memories are encased in this room, happy, sad, scared, all the emotions experienced with a growing family. The photo is slightly off-focus and the room is messy so there’s plenty of room for improvement (my word for the year is Focus) For me it’s the heart of my house. For it is also the room where my 20 year old son took his last breathe after fighting a 13 month battle with Ewing’s sarcoma surrounded by 19 loving family members and friends. I saw him take his first breath and I saw him take his last although it’s not supposed to be that way. I feel his presence there and it’s comforting as I enjoy a cup of coffee and simply be. I do all my creating in this room where I write my blog and make things to place on his memorial shelf. Jacob took his last breath to a song he introduced me to, aptly called ‘it’s nice to be alive.’ And everyday I think of this title and believe it with all my being, heart and soul.